Why is it that when you try to love some people, they push you away? I mean you would do almost anything for them, but during the relationship they treated you like you weren’t anything special. They never complimented you,they ignored you, and they pointed out all your faults. They said things like, “I can’t compliment you too much, because you might get a bighead.” (?) It seemed that their life got better, but yours got worse. Even their friends and family members benefited from him or her knowing you. They all used you when it was convenient for them. Their actions made it crystal clear that they aren’t really concerned about you. Yet, you continue to stay stuck to them like glue. If they told you to jump you would be on the ceiling fan talking about, “Is this high enough? I can go higher!” Yet he/she was still not satisfied with you.
Then when you finally wake up and fall out of love with them and really could care less about them; here they come trying to do those same things that you used to do for them. Now they want to be stuck to you like glue, they now compliment you, and they now want to jump through hoops for you. They stay steady putting on a show for your benefit, but fail to realize that you are not even in the audience anymore, and even if you were, you would probably yell out, “Boooo! Get off the stage!” Why don’t you care about them anymore? Because you are fed up, done, tired, and through. I mean you don’t want anything bad to happen to them, but you really could care less about what they feel about you. A small part of you may feel sorry for them, because they had genuine love in the palm of their hands, but they balled it up like a piece of tissue, threw it away, and stepped on it. It’s like they finally realized that what they thought was a cubic zirconium was really a beautiful diamond, and now all of a sudden they want it back. Selfishly, they think that since they finally woke up, things will now be all good. Sadly, life doesn’t play out like it does in the movies. You can’t play with someone’s feelings and think that they will always be there, especially when you have mistreated them.
I came to the conclusion that some people can’t give or receive love. They are hurting badly from something or someone that hurt them, so they just continue the Hurt People, Hurt Other People Cycle. I thank God that I still know how to love, and have not let my loveless past dictate my future. Do you want to know love? Find Jesus; and I guarantee you that you will know Love, because you can’t know him without it.
Can anyone out there relate?
Be Blessed *Y'all
06 September 2006
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